What Now?

I've been ignoring this big lump in my throat

I shouldn't be crying, tears were for the weak

The days I'm stronger, know what, so I say

That's something missing

Whatever it is, it feels like it's laughing at me
through the glass of a two-sided mirror

Whatever it is, it's just laughing at me

And I just wanna scream

What now?
I just can't figure it out

What now?
I guess I'll just wait it out

What now?
Ohhhh what now?

Get the Look:

Pasties: League: Duct Tape Set-Black

Corset: Etchaflesh : Truth Inside Flared Underbust Corset

Collar: Etchaflesh : Double Buckle Neck Corset

Skirt: Luck : Ruffled Miniskirt-Falu Red

Boots: Etchaflesh : Black Leather Overknee Boot

Piercing: Pekka : Fidelity

Tattoo: Endless Pain Tattoo : Pure Sin

Eyeliner: Belleza : Eyeliner 2

Lipstick: Belleza : Lily V1 Lipstick Tattoo Bundle-8

Skin: Belleza : Lily V1 Med-15

Eyes: Insufferable Dastard : Infected Eyes (Past Grunge Soul Project Item)

Hair: Magika : Blame 03

Pose: Diesel Works : Nightingales's Sorrow

Listening To: What Now? by Rihanna

Broken Things

War is the most vulgar madness

And winters can be so cruel

You can't always change the way things are 

Like I can't change the way I think of you

Oh my love, my heart is set on you...

Get the Look:

Dress: Rotten Defiance : My Full Lace Mini-Red

Stockings: erratic : ripped stockings-black

Boots: BAX : Prestige Boots-Black Leather

Horns: The Plastik : Triz Horns-Stone

Piercing: Pekka : Fidelity

Tattoo:   Endless Pain : Sweet lil Sin

Hair: [e] : Figure-Firey Reds 10

Eyes: Insufferable  Dastard : Infected Eyes-GSP 1

Makeup: Izzie's :Make-up Smokey 2

Skin: Glam Affair : Roza 03 (Arcade Gotcha Event)

Pose: Glitterati : Wild-9 and aDORKable : Confident Leo-4 (past Zodiac item)

Let it go

Skeletons and Ghosts are hiding in the shadows

Threatening me with all the things that they know

Choices and mistakes, they all know my name

But I’m through holding in and holding onto all that pain

Today I’m gonna keep on walking 

I’m gonna hold my head up high

Got No more tears to cry

Today I’m gonna stand out in the rain 

Let it wash it all away...Yeah wash it all away

Get the Look:

Shirt: The Plastik : Antique Vintage Lace Tops-Magic (Vintage Faire Item)

Jeans: Luck : Tyra Lowrise Flare-White

Piercing: Pekka : Fidelity

Shoes: N-core : LULU-Black (Vintage Faire Item)

Hair: Wasabi Pills :  Sylvie Mesh-Chocolate

Eyes: The Plastik : Eyes-Veila (Vintage Faire Item)

Makeup: Pekka : Disco 1 Eye Shadow with Eyeliner-Pink

Makeup: Belleza : Glitter Eyeshadows-Silver

Makeup: Izzie's :Make-up Smokey 2

Skin: Belleza : Alyson Med 2

Pose: aDORKable : Confident Leo 1 and 4 

Part of me

I just wanna throw my phone away

Find out who is really there for me

You ripped me off, your love was cheap

Was always tearing at the seams

I fell deep and you let me drown

But that was then and this is now.

Get the Look:

Dress: Hucci : Tube Dress-Midnight (New Item)

Shoes: N-core : Soleil-Black

Bracelet: [EY:NO] : Cross Bracelet

Tattoo:   Endless Pain : La danse du Papillon (New Item)

Piercing: Pekka : Fidelity

Eyes: Insufferable Dastard : Moody Vamp-Wispy Blue (New Item)

Makeup: Izzie's :Make-up Smokey 2

Hair: Exile : Break Away-Swiss (One Voice Item)

Skin: Belleza : Alyson Med 15

Pose: Glitterati : Boxy

Somehow

But somehow
Somehow I’d like to get to know him
Somebody told me that I shouldn't claim him
Somebody told me that I should let him go
Baby somehow, yeah

Get the Look:

Shirt: coldLogic : oneVoice-black/white

Pants: coldLogic : lepore.black

Piercing: Pekka : Fidelity

Hair: Truth : Kalista Streaked-Espress

Eyes: KMADD : Creature-Plastic Ocean

Makeup: Izzie's :Make-up Smokey 2

Skin: Belleza : Alyson Med 2

Pose: Glitterati : In the Picture

Everybody Talks

Hey baby won't you look my way
I can be your new addiction
Hey baby what you gotta say?
All you're giving me is fiction
I'm a sorry sucker and this happens all the time

Get the Look:

Dress: BOOM : Baggy Backless Tee-Lipstick

Tattoo:   Endless Pain : La danse du Papillon (New Item)

Piercing: Pekka : Fidelity

Hair: Truth : Jessie w/roots-Cocoa

Eyes: KMADD : Creature-Plastic Ocean

Makeup: Izzie's :Make-up Smokey 2

Skin: Belleza : Alyson Med 2

Pose: Glitterati : Basic 2 and 5

Listening to: Everybody Talks by Neon Trees

Letters from Paris

Get the Look:

Outfit: [ SAKIDE} : Letters from Paris-Black ( One Voice Item)

Piercing: Pekka : Fidelity

Tattoo:   Endless Pain : Pure Sin

Hair: Truth : Kalista Streaked-Espress

Eyes: KMADD : Creature-Plastic Ocean

Eyeliner: Belleza : Eyeline 4 (Past FLF Item)

Makeup: Izzie's :Make-up Smokey 2

Skin: Belleza : Alyson Med 2

Pose: Glitterati : Boxed 3 (FLF Item)

A slight change....

For a while, this is something that I have always thought of doing and well, I'll be honest, I've been chicken.  To some this might be really silly but it is a personal struggle of mine.  Mainly because of how it mirrors the real me.

A friend of mine though has been encouraging me for a few weeks to take charge and do this.  So after some serious convincing, I have decided to thicken up my shape to mirror more of who I am in real life.  Surprising this new shape is easier to get use to than I thought it would be, and even though it seems foolish, I'm happy that I listened to my friend and made the change.  I won't say that I still don't need convincing or it isn't hard when sometimes mesh doesn't fit the right way in the smaller sizes but I'm glad I'm being true to the thick girl that is me.

Get the Look:

Dress: Kyoot : Whitehaven Beach Dress-White (Collabor88 Item)

Tattoo:   Endless Pain : Pure Sin

Piercing: Pekka : Fidelity

Eyes: KMADD : Creature-Plastic Ocean

Eyeliners: Belleza : Eyeliner 4 (Past FLF Item)

Makeup: Izzie's :Make-up Smokey 2

Hair: Exile : Valerie: Roots-Wedge 

Skin: Belleza : Alyson Med 2

Pose: !bang : without purpose 3 (Collabor88 Item)

Happy 4th of July!!!

Hope ya'll have a safe and happy 4th of July!!!

Get the Look:

Outfit: Blacklace : Jewel: 4th of July Edition 

Piercing: Pekka : Fidelity

Hair: Fri.day : Deena-Jealous Red

Eyes: KMADD : Creature-Plastic Ocean

Makeup: Izzie's :Make-up Smokey 2

Skin: Belleza : Alyson Med 2

Pose: exposeur : Blissful 19

Wanted you more....

All the words unspoken,
Promises broken,
I cried for so long.
Wasted too much time
Should have seen the signs.
Now I know, just what went wrong,
I guess I wanted you more.

I signed into today and I clearly am a little behind in reading through my notecards from this weekend.  So I thought tonight I would catch up....see what I was missin out on.  All the sales, all the new releases.  One notecard caught my eye though.  The skirt was adorable and well the name of the skirt just makes the skirt ten times better.  I stood there trying to decide which colors I should buy...it was a challenge for sure.  I'm just glad I'm caught up, couldn't pass up a skirt that has my name.  

Get the Look:

Tank: .not so bad. : AVA tank top-White

Skirt: .not so bad. : EMA skirt-black

Earrings: Pekka : Maniac Ear Piercing V1

Piercing: Pekka : Fidelity

Bracelet: Hermony : Studded Wristband

Hair: Truth : Brandi-Java (w/flower included with hair)

Eyes: KMADD : Creature-Plastic Ocean

Makeup: Izzie's :Make-up Smokey 2

Skin: Belleza : Alyson Med 2

Pose: Juxtapose : TOSL BDay 2 (TOSL Hunt Item)

The Bottom

You suffocate.

You cannot wait for this to just be over.

You want to run and just be done.

Your what you can't control here.

Don't know what your thinking.

This ship is sinking.

I will meet you at the bottom.

The waves can't wash away all the scars you bare.

See you at the bottom.

You just hold on to the things that keep you there.

Get the look:

Outfit: [ SAKIDE} : Malefic Outfit (FairyTale Fair Item)

Boots: Slink : Tall Leather Thigh Boots-Black

Horns: Illusions : Grumble Horns

Piercing: Pekka : Maniac Ear Piercing V1

Makeup: Plastik : Ataciara Makeup-Dark

Eyes: KMADD : Creature-Plastic Ocean (FairyTale Fair Item)

Hair: Exile : Jaela:Roots-Wedge

Skin: Belleza : Elle Med 7

Pose: Glitterati : Bitch 10 and Sexy 3 and 8

Not Over You

If you ask me how I'm doing,

I would say I'm doing just fine.

I would lie and say that you're not on my mind,

But I go out, and I sit down at a table set for two,

And finally I'm forced to face the truth,

No matter what I say I'm..

Not over you.

Get the Look:

Dress: [ SAKIDE} : Urban Cities Dress-White (Perfect Wardrobe Item)

Bracelet:  Urbanity-Leather Bands

Hairband: charme : De Tournesol Rose (XYRoom Item)

Piercing: Pekka : Fidelity

Tattoo: Pekka : Heart 2-Black

Hair: Truth : Charmaine w/Roots-Java

Eyes: Izzie's :Dark Mesh Eyes-Clear Blue

Makeup: Izzie's :Make-up Smokey 2

Skin: Belleza : Elle Med 18

Pose:   dfo! : new girl- by far the best person I know and my heart hurts (FLF Item)

Listening to Not Over You by Gavin Degraw

We were so in love...

The summer air was heavy and sweet

You and I on a crowded street

There was music everywhere

I can see us there

In a happy little foreign town

Where the stars hung upside down

A half a world away

Far, far away

I remember you were laughing

We were so in love, we were so in love

Get the Look:

Outfit: Cynful : Breeze-Black

Tattoo:   Endless Pain : Lucky

Hair Piece: artilleri : Hibi Hair Flower (Past FLF Item)

Hair: Truth : Evelyn-Chocolate

Eyes: Plastik : Vaele Mesh Collection-Lovestory (Mesh Around Hunt Item)

Makeup: Izzie's :Make-up Smokey 2

Skin: Belleza : Alyson Med 2

Pose: Glitterati : Model Pack 10- 98

Sweet Summer Day

Sweet summer day
I'm talking about a sweet summer day
Take your troubles and let them drift away
Talking about a sweet summer day

Get the Look:

Top: BOOM : Infinity Kini Halter Top-White

Skirt: Alexohol : Triplet Cocktail Skirt-Purple Dots

Shoes:   Maitreya :Flip Flops-Pure

Hair: Truth : Gretel-Cocoa

Sunglasses: Maitreya : Mesh Jackie O Sunglasses (Past My Attic Item)

Skin: Belleza : Elle Med 18

Pose: exposeur : Beach Ball Baby-Holding Up

Raise Your Glass

Taste of Second Life is celebrating it's 2nd Anniversary this weekend.  The theme for this weekend is fitting...Party Time.  What girl doesn't enjoy a fancy, glittery dress to slip into and enjoy a Saturday night of fun?

Get the Look:

Dress: Alexohol : Party Gras Dress-Black/White (TOSL Item)

Bracelets:    Izzie's : Angular Bangles-Pink (TOSL Item)

Hair: Truth : Rhonda w/Roots-Espresso

Eyes: Plastik : Vaele Mesh Collection-Lovestory (Mesh Around Hunt Item)

Makeup: Izzie's :Make-up Smokey 2

Skin: Belleza : Elle Med 18

Pose: Glitterati : Drink 1

Angels on the Moon

Do you dream, that the world will know your name

So tell me your name

Do you care, about all the little things or anything at all?

I wanna feel, all the chemicals inside I wanna feel

I wanna sunburn, just to know that I'm alive

To know I'm alive

Don't tell me if I'm dying, cause I don't wanna know

If I can't see the sun, maybe I should go

Don't wake me cause I'm dreaming, of angels on the moon

Where everyone you know, never leaves too soon

Get the Look:

Shirt: T.Whore : The Gray T-shirt - Cuppy

Pants: Riddle : Leather Pants-Black

Shoes: Mstyle : RIVEA Pumps-Magenta

Belt:   Hermony : Lucky Death Belt

Bracelet: Panda Express : Brace-Straps-black

Tattoo:   Endless Pain : Pure Sin

Piercing: Pekka : Flesh

Makeup: Plastik : Ataciara Makeup-Dark

Makeup: Plastik : Vaele Mesh Collection-LoveStory (Mesh Around Hunt Item)

Hair: Wasabi Pills : Teeloh Mesh Hair-Night Shadow

Pose:   exposeur : Attention Hoar 5 and I love Being a Girl 9

Listening to Angels on the Moon by Thriving Ivory.

Brighter

So this is how it goes

Well I, I would have never known

And if it ends today

Well, I'll still say that you shine brighter than anyone

Get the Look:

Romper: coldLogic : Ella-Lemonade

Feet: Maitreya : Bare Flat Feet

Piercing: Pekka : Fidelity

Makeup: Izzie's :Make-up Smokey 2

Makeup: Plastik : Vaele Mesh Collection-Wynter (Mesh Around Hunt Item)

Hair: Exile : Midnight in Paris-Swiss

Pose:   W.Winx : Artist Studio (My Attic Item)

Listening to Brighter by Paramore

The Lucky One

"You know, the smallest thing can change a life. In the blink of an eye, something happens by chance - and when you least expect it - since we're on a course that you could have never planned, into a future you never imagined. Where will it take you? That's the journey of our lives: our search for the light. But sometimes, finding the light means you must past through the deepest darkness. At least, that's how it was for me."

Get the Look: 

Shirt: Sassy! : Venus Mesh Top-Multidot (Zombie Popcorn Item)

Capris: coldLogic : Lepore-Black

Shoes: Mstyle : GOSHI Pumps-Black

Bracelet: Panda Express : Brace-Straps-black

Tattoo:   Endless Pain : Lucky

Piercing: Pekka : Fidelity

Makeup: Izzie's :Make-up Smokey 2

Eyes: Plastik : Vaele Mesh Collection-Wynter (Mesh Around Hunt Item)

Hair: Truth : Rhonda w/Roots-Espresso

Skin: Belleza : Alyson Med 2

Pose: Glitterati : Bitch 2 and 5

Dark Side

There's a place that i know...

it's not pretty there and few have ever gone,

if i show it to you now,

will it make you run away?

or will you stay...

even if it hurts...

even if i try to push you out.

will you return?

and remind me who i really am,

please remind me who i really am.

everybody's got a dark side,

do you love me?

can you love mine?

nobody's a picture perfect,

but we're worth it,

you know that we're worth it.

will you love me?

even with my dark side?

Get the Look:

Lingerie: Insatiable Fashions : Polka II Set-Grey (Culture Shock Item)

Shoes: Hucci : D'Ann Pump-Midnight Rendezvous

Tattoo: Pekka : Heart 2-Black

Tattoo: Tenjin : Hellion in Heels-Faded (Grenade Free Wednesday Item)

Piercing: Pekka : Fidelity

Makeup: Izzie's :Make-up Smokey 2

Eyes: n-creation : Nico3 Eyes-Style 1

Hair: LeLutka : Daisy-Overcooked

Skin: Ploom : Lea Vanilla-Red Wine (My Attic Item)

Pose: Diesel Works : Kneeled 2 and 4 

Starships

Starships were meant to fly

Hands up, and touch the sky

Can't stop, 'cause we're so high

Let's do this one more time

Get the Look:

Dress: elymode : 54 Dress Jumper-Pink (My Attic Item)

Boots: Slink : Tall Leather Thigh Mesh Boots-Black

Piercing: Pekka : Fidelity

Makeup: Izzie's :Make-up Smokey 2

Eyes: Izzie's :Dark Mesh Eyes-Clear Blue

Hair: Exile : Esme-Roots Raven

Skin: Belleza : Alyson Med 2

Pose: Glitterati : Bitch 9

Listening to Starships by Nicki Minaj

Summertime

I think about you in the summertime, 
And all the good times we had, baby, 
Been a few years and I can't deny, 
The thought of you still makes me crazy, 
I think about you in the summertime.

TOSL ended a few days ago but I'm pretty sure that you can still get the dress at the Alexohol store, maybe just not at the TOSL price.  The store is in the process of being set back up, they moved...the info is all here in this blog blog .  Alex is starting releasing more mesh stuff, which I've blogged before.  It's really cute stuff for adorable prices.  Check the store out here .

Get the Look:

Dress: Alexohol : Overflow Mesh Dress-White Teal (TOSL Item)

Piercing: Pekka : Fidelity

Makeup: Izzie's :Make-up Smokey 2

Eyes: Naive-Eyes Shiny Grey (Store closed)

Hair: Truth : Chalice-Mahogany

Skin: Belleza : Lily Med (Group Gift)

Pose: aDORKable : Daydream 4 and Daydream II-5 (Collabor88 Item)

1,2,3,4

There's only one thing to do
Three words for you I love you
There's only one way to say
Those three words and that's what I'll do, I love you

Get the look:

Shirt: Hucci : Salli Crop Tank-Mint (Group Gift)

Skirt: Hucci : Tai Skirt-Mint (Group Gift)

Shoes: GOS :Espadrilles-White

Piercing: Pekka : Fidelity

Makeup: Izzie's :Make-up Smokey 2

Eyes: n-creation : Nico3 Eyes-Style 1

Hair: Exile : Secret Summer-Swiss

Skin: Belleza : Lily Med (Group Gift)

Pose: aDORKable : Je T'aime  ( My Attic Item)

Listening to 1, 2, 3, 4 by the Plain White T's

Our Song

I was riding shotgun with my hair undone

In the front seat of his car

He's got a one-hand feel on the steering wheel

The other on my heart

I look around, turn the radio down

He says, Baby is something wrong??

I say, Nothing I was just thinking

How we don't have a song? and he says

Our song is the slamming screen door

Sneakin' out late, tapping on your window

When we're on the phone and you talk real slow

'Cause it's late and your mama don't know

Get the Look:

Tank: coldLogic : Laurie.Black

Capris: coldLogic : Dee.Pink

Shoes: G.Field : Knot Wedge Sandals-Black

Piercing: Pekka : Fidelity

Makeup: Izzie's :Make-up Smokey 2

Eyes: Izzie's :Dark Mesh Eyes-Clear Blue

Hair: LeLutka : Inverted-Pitch

Skin: Belleza : Alyson Med 2

Pose: ilaya : Vintage Dark Brown Mesh Radio