Newness that makes me squeal

I'll admit it, yep I squealed at the offline when I got this group gift.  I knew it wasn't going to disappoint before I even saw the notecard or the item on me.  Of course I was right.  And not only was there one color but five.

Maybe a piece of me was excited that Ali had released some yummy sexy goodness and a girl could hope more is coming (hint, hint Ali....we want more).  If you haven't ever been or if for some crazy reason you haven't smacked the subscriber at Insatiable Fashions, get over there.  The gift will be in the history for a bit.  Of course while you're there, make sure to look around...it's good stuff.

Get the Look:

Lingerie: {IF} : Leopard-Grey (Group Gift)

Boots: [GOS] : MESH Triumph Boots-Red ( Festival of Sin Item)

Tattoo: Endless Pain : Pure Sin

Makeup: Plastik : Ataciara Makeup-Dark

Eyes: Poetic Colors : Last Light-Medium

Hair: Exile : Rivers Run-Sable

Skin: Belleza : Elle BR Med-14

Pose: Glitterati : Lockdown

She's like a star

Get the Look:

Lingerie: Kyoot : Little Ache-White ( Festival of Sin Item)

Feet: Maitreya : Bare Feet

Tattoo: S (and) P : You are my star

Makeup: Plastik : Ataciara Makeup-Dark

Eyes: Poetic Colors : Last Light-Medium

Hair: LeLutka : Drew-Coffee Brown

Skin: Belleza : Elle BR Med-14

Pose: VP-Posepipe (store closed)

Listening to: She's like a star by Taio Cruz

Birthday Girl

My birthday may almost be over but that doesn't mean that the fun has to be.  I've had an amazing birthday weekend...followed by an magnificently wonderful day today which included some shopping.

Who knew turning 30 was going to be so fun?? 

I've been watching the sneak peak pictures for items from the Festival of Sin and with every one, I've been getting more and more excited.  Finally, it opened on the 18th.  I got to sneak in tonight for a bit.  Just long enough to get a few things that I wanted until I could get back to see what else I wanted.

  I am wearing the new Triumph boots from GOS, I fatpacked them but the exclusive color for the fair is red.  I'm really not sure these are coming off my feet anytime soon.  Also, aDORKable's poses at the fair are so sexy and adorable...who doesn't love naked poses.  I can't wait to try the other set of poses from aDORKable. *wink*

Get the Look:

Boots: [GOS] : MESH Triumph Boots-Pink (Festival of Sin Item--Red Boots)

Piercing: Pekka : Fidelity

Tattoo: Pekka : Taken

Makeup: Plastik : Ataciara Makeup-Dark

Eyes: Poetic Colors : Last Light-Medium

Hair: Magika : Safe 01

Skin: Belleza : Elle BR Med-14

Pose: aDORKable : Touch Me 1 (Festival of Sin Item)

Standing in: Glitterati : Hallway

Valentine

You're all I need 

My love, my valentine....

Get the Look:

Dress: coldLogic : Valentine Gift

Piercing: Pekka : Fidelity

Makeup: Plastik : Ataciara Makeup-Dark

Eyes: Plastik : Haunt Collection-Frot

Hair: Shag : Army of me-Chocolate

Skin: Belleza : Elle BR Med-15

Pose: Glitterati : Formality 2-8

Listening to: My Valentine-Martina McBride

Tonight

Baby, tonight's the night I let you know

Baby, tonight's the night we lose control

Get the look:

Dress: T.Whore : Push Up Dress-Black (new item)

Shoes: Hucci : Choose Love Pumps-Sugarwalls Zebra ( Dressing Room Item)

Piercing: Pekka : Fidelity

Makeup: Plastik : Ataciara Makeup-Dark

Eyes: LINC : Steel Blue

Hair: Exile : Rivers Run-Swiss (new item)

Skin: Belleza : Elle BR Med-`4

Pose: Olive Juice: LookBook Pt 5-Causal 4

Listening to: Tonight by John Legend

I belong to you.

I've been to the bottom, Now I'm back on top.

When I'm feelin' the rhythm as we start to rock,

When ya get down to it, I belong to you.

Though I'm not afraid to let it show.

I'll tell the world, 

I want everyone to know,

There's nobody that does

Me like you do.

All of my love is yours tonight.

Get the look:

Dress: d.select : Long Winter Sweater-Grey Diamonds

Tights: fri.day : Opaque.Stockings-Black

Piercing: Pekka : Fidelity

Makeup: Plastik : Ataciara Makeup-Dark

Eyes: LINC : Steel Blue

Hair: Truth : Astrid-Espresso

Skin: Belleza : Elle BR Med-`4

Pose: Diesel Works :  PolyWall v.2012

Listening to: I Belong to You by Whitney Houston

Roses

Grow me a garden of roses

Paint me the colors of sky and rain

Teach me to speak with their voices

Show me the way and I'll try again

Get the Look:

Outfit:  Paradisis : A Valentine's Day Outfit

Piercing: Pekka : Fidelity

Makeup: Plastik : Ataciara Makeup-Dark

Eyes: LINC : Steel Blue

Hair: Truth : Fiona-Espresso

Skin: League : Amber-Suntan Smoky

Pose: Glitterati : Long Hair 3-1

Letting Go

The hurt.  It's suffocating.  

The pain....the lies....it ripped through my being so fast.  I was numb.  I don't have the physical scars but they are there.  It's like I've been beaten, it's like I've been left in a pile of bruises and tears.  Everything was black for a moment and I realized what was happening....Promises became just words.  Actions suddenly screamed to me.  Everything that was hidden was suddenly brought into the light.  There was no backing out of what was unfolding.

So I gazed into that reflection, I saw the face that stared back at me.  

I didn't recognize me.  I was in so much hurt.  I ached and I cried.  I became angry.  I searched for answers even though I knew that regardless it wasn't going to lessen any of the pain that broke at my heart.  

And then I realized this....I had to make a decision, no one else could make this for me......

So I am letting go....I'm not giving into defeat.  I'm not failing.  I'm just surrendering and letting go so that I can heal.  I want to be whole again.  I can't keep holding on if what I am trying to hold onto is slipping through my fingers.  This isn't me being bitter at the situation...I just need comfort and I need peace.

  I am taking the wheel for my life right now.  I am going to be in control of it.