The Story

All of these lines across my face

Tell you the story of who I am

So many stories of where I've been

And how I got to where I am

We make rules and conditions for so many reasons. We use them as masks to keep hidden. We carefully keep adding mask after mask because it is easier to keep what you want hidden than to long for it over and over.  We play this game.  Pretending things we don't want.  We know better yet we do it over and over again.  We keep thinking we are smart in our thinking.

So what is the reason that we do it.  Sometimes we want to see who is willing to risk yanking the mask off, who is worth breaking our rules, who is just worth letting in.  What is the story that we want for ourselves that we are just way too afraid to admit?  We all have the story we want, the one that we long for, the one we hope will someday come true.    I have mine.  What's your story?

Get the Look:

Corset: J's : Lace-Up Corset-Black Leather

Pants: Luck : Tyra Lowrise Jeans Flare-Washed Dark Blue

Shoes: Redgrave : Helena 

Collar: Maxi Gossamer : Midnight Dare 2

Bracelet: {me.} : Rock'N Chic Bracelets-Black

Piercing: Pekka : Fidelity

Tattoo: *V* Store : Love Weapon Tattoo

Hair: Magika : Tomorrow

Nails: MIAMAI : Lacquer Sublime Nails-Ink 

Eyeliner: Pekka : Metalic Under Eyeliner-Black

Eyeliner: (Elate!) : Double Cateye Eyeliner

Eyelashes:   MIAMAI : Protagoniste Basic

Eyes: Glam Affair : Glam Affair- Stella Eyes 02

Lipstick: Pink Fuel : Elly Cosmetics - Juicy Gloss-Lingerie Pink

Skin: Belleza : Lily V1 Med-19

Not Okay.

This isn't bout what I'm wearing tonight.  This is just bout how I'm feeling right now.  No one will probably get it and that is okay.  Sometimes I don't know what to make of anything.  

I feel like no matter what I do, I just hurt tonight.  I am tired of holding it together and being strong.  I'm tired of wanting.   I'm tired of being the girl but never the it girl.  I'm tired of just feeling that to the outside world, I'm put together when in reality if you peel off the masks, I'm bruised and I'm falling apart.  I'm broken.  I hurt.  I ache.  I'm black and blue.  

Tonight I'm tired of whispering the words, "I'm fine" when I'm really not.  Not even close.

Shake It Off

I went on a little shopping spree the other day.  Mainly because I wanted the new pants from Plastik.  While I was minding my own business, these sexy ripped looking shirts caught my eye.  I was debating which one I should purchase but it all was just so simple when I caught the name of one....EMA.  

Regrets collect like old friends

Here to relive your darkest moments

I can see no way, I can see no way

And all of the ghouls come out to play

And every demon wants his pound of flesh

But I like to keep some things to myself

I like to keep my issues drawn

It's always darkest before the dawn

And, I am done with my graceless heart

So tonight I'm gonna cut it out and then restart

Cause I like to keep my issues drawn

It's always darkest before the dawn

Get the Look:

Shirt: Plastik : Little Ghost Tops-Ema 

Pants: Plastik : Militia Jeans-Dark (New Release) 

Shoes: Redgrave : Helena (New Release)

Piercing: Pekka : Fidelity

Piercing: Pekka : Imaginable v.2

Bracelets: Envious : Take No More Outfit (item from outfit)

Earrings: Maxi Gossamer :Raisa Drop-Silver (faMESHed Item)

Nails: MIAMAI : Lacquer Sublime Nails-Ink (New Release)

Tattoo: Little Pricks : She Will Be Loved

Tattoo: Little Pricks : Beautiful Diaster

Eyeliner: (Elate!) : Double Cateye Eyeliner

Eyeliner: Pekka : Metalic Under Eyeliner-Black

Lipstick: Pink Fuel : INK Lipgloss (Teeth)

Hair: Wasabi Pills : Erika-Rouge

Eyes: Glam Affair : Glam Affair- Stella Eyes 02

Skin: Belleza : Lily V1 Med-19

Pose: Diesel Works : Shyla 6 and 10 

State of Grace

You come around and the armor falls

Pierce the room like a cannon ball

Now all we know is don't let go...

So you were never a saint

And I’ve loved in shades of wrong

We learn to live with the pain

Mosaic broken hearts...

And I never saw you coming

And I'll never be the same

This is a state of grace.

Get the Look:

Shirt: Hucci : Ramara Top-Moonglow

Skirt: [Miseria] : Daisy Mini Skirt-Attic Edition

Shoes: [GOS] : Ursula Wedges

Hair: elikatira : Only-Firey Reds 09

Tattoo: Little Pricks : Just Be

Piercing: Pekka : Fidelity 

Nails: MIAMAI : Lacquer Sublime Nails-Ink

Bracelet: Maxi Gossamer :Bangles-Pitch Black Dare

Necklace: Maxi Gossamer :Raisa Drop Necklace-Small (Silver)

Eyelashes:   MIAMAI : Catwalk Lashes-Toxic Black

Eyeliner: (Elate!) : Double Cateye Eyeliner

Makeup: Plastik : Ataciara Makeups-Smudgy Shadows

Lipgloss: Pink Fuel : Elly Cosmetics -Juicy Gloss-Natural

Eyes: Glam Affair : Glam Affair- Stella Eyes 02

Skin: Belleza : Lily V1 Med-18

Pose: AUSHKA & CO : Ania Pose-2, 6, and 9

Listening To: State of Grace by Taylor Swift

50 Shades of Sexy-Week 9: Pillow Talk

Those late nights conversations that keep you up way too late, that make you so tired the next day but bring such a smile to your face.  It's so worth it.  So you ignore everything, sitting in the dark with just the glow from your computer screen, smiling and laughing, enjoying the company of someone incredibly special.  

Get the Look:

Lingerie: Rock Me Amadeus : Barbara- Turquoise

Tattoo: *V* Store : Love Weapon Tattoo

Eyeliner: (Elate!) : Double Cateye Eyeliner

Makeup: Plastik : Ataciara Makeups-Smudgy Shadows

Eyes: Glam Affair : Glam Affair- Stella Eyes 02

Hair: [e] : Over-Brown 10

Skin: Belleza : Lily V1 Med-18

50 Shades of Sexy-Week 8: Bound

No collars, no ropes, no leash.  

Not the typical form of being bound.  

When I saw this theme, I knew instantly what I wanted.  Being bound sometimes isn't about the collar fastened safely around your neck, the ropes that bind your wrists and ankles, or even the leash that connects you to your owner.  Being bound by your heart strings, knowing that he doesn't have to be even sitting in front of you but yet your entire being is bound to him.  The invisible bounds are the most intense, the ones that you ultimately want with the one you are with.  Bound is about sometimes not always the obvious to the outside but the very apparent to you and him.

Get the Look:

Panties:  [Insatiable Fashions] : Polka II-Pale Plum II (The Black Market 40L Item)

Tattoo: *V* Store : Love Weapon Tattoo

Hair: Magika : Remember

Skin: Belleza : Lily V1 Med-18

Pose: Diesel Works : Kneeled 3